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It's 1 in the morning and the room phone wakes me up. Chanel is crying and although I can not understand every word, I know what's wrong. As I run down the street to the Hospital, I call my mom. I tell her what Chanel told me, Isabella is getting worse. As I sit here, waiting for St. Mary's to transfer Chanel, Isabella is moving a little more than she was earlier. She is kicking a little bit, the way she would when she was only 30 weeks old. I can still remember her playfully kicking mommy's belly trying to get daddy's attention as Chanel would say. Her hand is finally open and she is holding my finger. It is killing me inside the more I think about things, like how I never got to hold her or play with her. It is 1:30 now, Chanel should be here any minute. My mind keeps flashing back to when we made the decision to come out East. Of course we were making the right choices, as hard as they were. CDH still has no known cause or cure, but we had to do something. We had to do anything and everything we could do to save Isabella. Chanel is here, it is 1:45 a.m. She is even more heartbroken than I am. She has gone through so much, and done even more to bring our daughter into this life. We are able to receive privacy and we both are left alone with our baby. We talk to Isabella, comfort her and comfort one another. It is now 2:30 and the doctors have just finished confirming what we already knew,that Isabella was a fighter. She stayed strong through everything that came her way. She was just too tired in the end. After another hour had past, we bathe her and they tell is it is time to let us hold her, which raises both our spirits greatly. It is not too long after they disconnect Isabella from any life support that she is in her mothers arms. I hold her a while, and a doctor comes to check her heartbeat. Her heart has stopped beating. She spent her last moments with the two people who loved her most. She is smiling, and that is the image I will carry with me forever. We love you Isabella, you will be missed dearly. She died at only 23 hours old.