Impossibilities

It is hard to find things to write about anymore. It is almost like a writers block. I look at websites or Facebook at the other people who struggle with CDH children and it reminds me or Missouri and all those days spent in a hospital room. The day after Isabella's funeral was the start of a new college semester for me. Staying on task and focused never was this difficult. Math seems more difficult, chemistry more distant and psychology more confusing. As my father offered a prayer during the funeral service he stated how Isabella had left an imprint on his life. It makes me ponder and reflect on just how much she made an impact on mine. Now we worry about bills to pay, cars that need fixing and tuition that needs to paid, but our the memory of our daughter is just as present. Chanel and I are getting married in February and although we try moving forward with our lives it is difficult. Chanel still struggles through these hard times, and breaks down in tears without warning. It always seems to catch me off guard but I know how she feels. This is the saddest experience either one of us has gone through so far in our young lives. The death of a loves one who had so much to give and gave as much as she could the short time she was with us. It is nothing short of heartbreaking. Yet here are, our meaningless day to day challenges causing us to push on with life. To continue to try to live our lives to their fullest while maintaining our sanity. It is not easy, but it is not impossible.