The Sooner, The Better

The last couple of days have been too spiritually hard to describe. I am trying the best I can to keep my mind occupied so that I will not be sad. Staying at the Ronald McDonald house while the love of my life is still in the Hospital does not help either. Facebook notifications make Chanel's cell phone chime on the nightstand next to my bed. My friends are sending me messages of hope and love and I can not fall asleep. I can not stop weeping as I read their loving thoughts and prayers for Chanel and I. I love my friends so much, they have always been there for me. I just can not get Isabella out of my head, and my mind will not rest. I can feel her presence and her love. We spent most of today in Chanel's hospital bed holding and comforting one another. To keep from crying anymore, I turn on the NFL playoffs and watch the Broncos vs. the Steelers game. It was a really good game, and for the moment I feel happy. Chanel knows how much I love watching sports and I know how much she despises it, but she sits and watches it with me anyways. We called our families and started coordinating funeral arrangements with them. We will by flying back to Arizona with Isabella within the next week. Unfortunately, the return tickets for our flight expired. The hospital that flew us out here had made a mistake on our tickets home which render them useless. We will figure everything out. Things have fallen into place almost perfectly unto this point. We still need to take things one day at a time. Chanel is still recovering, and I already have our suitcases packed. I can not escape these painful memories fast enough. I just want to go home now. We miss beautiful Arizona, and we miss our friends and family.